four years and one week ago...

i looked like this!!

Waiting anxiously for the baby that was growing inside me. It´s so strange to look back and think that i had never seen her, that her constant presence in my life was about to begin and i had no idea what to expect, how she looked like and what kind of personality she would be born with. A week after this photo was taken i endured the worst physical pain of my life to push her into this world of ours and oh how that experience changed me forever. Suddenly i was responsible for a little life that just wanted me, needed me. Becoming a mother did for me what years of antidepressants never did for me, it gave me peace of mind and a sense of importance, a sense of worth.

Today she is four and oh how four is great, she woke up with a smiling face and even let me do her hair and that i tell you is a rarity almost unheard of in my household. I threw her a birthday party yesterday where  her little cousins and my friends and their kids came and gave her presents and ate cake. It was a fun day.